Sometime until 2AM: The water felt amazing. I panicked at first, thinking my contractions were going to stop, but they came back and were very strong. Alison assured me they weren’t going away this time. I started to get scared because I remembered how painful pushing was with Piggie. I was feeling like I was going to have a bowel movement and Alison told me that was a baby, not poop. I stalled through a few contractions cause I just kept thinking “Shit…I don’t want to do this. I can’t do this.” Alison told me that when I was ready to be done, the baby would be born, and until then I would just keep having contractions. I most definitely did not want to remain pregnant and in labor, so I started focusing on how happy it would make me to be able to call our family and let them know the baby was here. I wasn’t necessarily having pushing contractions, but it felt good to push. So every contraction, I grabbed hold of Luis on the side of the tub and pushed.